Even Though(May 31, 2010)

Even Though
May 31, 2010

My stomach feels as if it's been dropped,
into a deep bubbling boiling pot.
I can't say I like this feeling,
it isn't too appealing.
but if it only went away,
I might sleep again this day.
I know it won't recover,
for it was a very stupid blunder.
Just tell me why it has happened to me,
I see no reason that's why I plea.
Is there any other way,
so this feeling doesn't have to stay?
I guess there's not,
even though I deeply thought there ought.
But even at this and some of these moments,
when I've feared it's all in ruins.
I can still smile,
because even though I'll be here awhile.
It'll never drop into the depths of no where,
because it'll always be there.
Like the sun rising in the morning,
it'll always come back 'n' I might start glowing.
And it'll bring me back,
so I'll have to pack.
Take all my things,
grab them from the deepest holes.
Act like nothing happened,
and just pretend.
because as soon as this earthquake stops,
there will be silence that hardly bends.
All because I somehow smiled,
all because it somehow began to end.

Your smile is...(April 15, May 2, 2010)

Your smile is...
April 15 & May 2, 2010

Your smile is my umbrella on a rainy day.
It is as bright as the sun.
It makes my tears go away.

Your smile is my friend when others are gone.
It becomes my mirrored image.
It becomes a joy that'll never be gone.

Your smile is my shadow on a bright day.
It is as clear as the blue sky.
It follows me all the while.

If only you knew how you make my day,
make me feel like everything is perfect,
everything is great.

If only you could see your smile,
then you wouldn't stay away,
you'd make the pain go away.

You're my friend forever,
when you're here the sun never sets,
when you're gone the sky is hardly blue.

So,
all I have to say is,
I miss you.