Even Though(August 24, 2009)

Even Though
August 24, 2009

As the world seems to steer around me,
faster than my eyes can see,
I hear the sound of joy and peace that keeps me going,
it keeps me calm in this world uncontrolled.

I look and see another piece of contentment at the corner of my world,
the corner of my brain,
the corner of my life.

I see the waves of confusing hitting the shore,
but I turn my back on those waves and see a sight to behold,
a giant sphere of light with clouds and color all around,
which some call the sky but I call it a guiding hope.

hope reassuring,
a hope in knowing that some things may fail but others with grow,
grow strong in my dreams,
my life,
the wobble bridge.

but I fear not of falling off my wobbly bridge,
because I have a rope around my waist that is tied tight to the bridge,
and if I fall,
I'll climb the rope and sit back on my bridge,
the bridge that may shake but never break.

Glad to See You(August 24, 2009)

Glad to See You
August 24, 2009

I never remember that I can find you,
underneath this dark and gloom,
you are called many things,
I've seen you before,
I've met you before,
if only you would stay longer.

I've met your friends and family,
the other emotions of this world,
you in particular strike my interest,
but you come at odd times,
and I never know when or how long you'll stay,

Either way I'm glad you're here,
even though you might leave me tomorrow,
or the next day.

I have secret weapons to bring you back,
I should use them more often,
if only I had more,
more ways for you to stay,
more excuses.

Well you are here,
so I'm in good cheer,
I will be always,
when you're here.

This Feeling(August 23, 2009)

This Feeling
August 23, 2009

Thought I could stand this feeling,
hold it off a little longer,
drag it down till it's gone,
but it doesn't want to leave,
i fear it never will.

This feeling is unbearable,
I wish it would go away,
it is only gone for the shortest times,
but it comes back,
it always does.

When I say bye it says hello,
when i leave it becomes my shadow,
I can't escape it,
it wants me to feel it,
feel the feeling of needing you,
never living or breathing with out all of you.

It will never go away,
I think it's a price I must pay,
for having all of these friends,
these friends that are so close,
but this feeling makes them so far.

It will never leave,
never cease to make me feel it's pain,
the pain that isn't pain but really separation,
which might as well be pain.

Even though this feeling is with me,
I'm glad it means I have people around me that I miss,
and hopefully miss me,
if it weren't for this feeling I dislike so much,
I wouldn't be able to tell if i needed these people so much,
and I do.

Nothing(August 21, 2009)

Nothing
August 21, 2009

The joy of salvation,
the fear of death,
the confusion of friend or foe,
to be hated or loved,
to seek anything but pain,
when all you find is pain.

To feel unwanted,
to feel the sadness so much you must explode,
to live a lie,
a lie you made,
the lie that you are.

You feel as if everything true,
happy,
helpful,
is made up,
never existed.

This is all it ever will be,
an actor covered in a mask,
a mask that will never show its owners identity,
everything is nothing,
nothing becomes everything,
and everything dies.

Mind(August 20, 2009)

Mind
August 20, 2009

The mind twist and turns,
through this world unleashing,
it tries to find the answer to the question,
the question why this life is never ending pain,
sorrow,
and full of catastrophes,

It seeks to know the reason behind sadness,
the joy that is in love,
the life beneath the hidden trapdoor,
waiting to see the day,
where confusion may not lay.

It wants joy and bliss,
it needs dreams not nightmares.

This is all concealed in one small word,
but in a huge box,
the box of emotions,
thoughts and troubles,
this is and only can be,
the mind.

This Thing Called Life(August 19, 2009)

This Thing Called Life
August 19, 2009

The rambles of life,
the unclear path,
the path that is neither left or right,
but a giant squiggle of turns.

The joys of life,
the path secure,
when everything is close to perfect.

The reality of life,
where every action is felt,
strongly or not,
happy or not,
laughable or not.

The dreams of life,
all look clear and sweet,
just a thought,
never real.

The stuff of life is good or bad,
every time it makes you sad,
remember that some are true,
some think they are true to you,
and others know nothing about you.

Doubt(August 14, 2009)

Doubt
August 14, 2009

Doubt comes from the heart,
it is a secret,
that could be a rumor or lie,
it takes your beliefs,
your trusts,
your faith,
and makes you question,
if it is true or not.

It makes you worry,
it makes you confused,
if you believe in that doubt,
you might be wrong,
and lose your friends,
your family,
or anything that helps keep you strong.

If you lose your friends,
or family,
you will be in a tower of loneliness,
that was all caused,
because you followed Doubt.

Some doubt is true,
and that truth hurts,
the doubt that is true,
still leads you to confusion.

All I see is this doubt,
back and forth,
side to side,
where I look,
I see doubt.

If there is a way,
to be saved by this odd felling,
let it be known,
so anyone who doubts,
may be certain and not question,
and be confident in all that they do.