I Don't Know(October 13, 2009)

I Don't Know
October 13, 2009

The thoughts,
sinking in,
becoming the only think I am.
Showing no mercy,
taking me down hard,
till I can't get up.

I try to escape everything,
but end up with more,
more to do,
more work that makes me have to stay.

I don't want to stay.
I want to do things that don't involve hurting me,
hurting the way I think,
affecting the way I act.

I'm slowly losing me,
I will soon be erased,
someone save me,
people save me.

I need a motivation to keep going,
to do things that seem never ending,
to become the things I'll never be.

My thoughts,
actions,
everything in a jumble,
I don't know how to function,
I don't know what is what,
I just can't take this,
I don't know.